Fear of losing

Have you ever had such an extremely terrible experience when you feel yourself literally running out of breath completely over seconds, over something you've seen happening to your loved ones? And you feel the pain and shock as much as the person experiencing it, even though you've only seen it online.

At points when you can only think about how things could have gone south with that person and how they have experienced a narrow escape from death. You have a sudden realization that there was so much that could have happened, and you could have even never had another day together. What if you never had a tomorrow with that person?

These things are capable of bringing chills to someone's body who's only reading it online, but guess how it affects the person actually feeling it all? You can be the most optimistic person on earth, but at such moments, you can't help but think about all sorts of negative things that could have happened.

What would you do if this happens to you? What would you do when you experience such traumas of losing a person? You forgive, forget, talk, spend time, be nice and kind, right? You do all of that only because you now realize that tomorrow is really not promised, and you try to make the most out of the time you spend together talking or meeting. You do that out of fear of losing the person and never getting to see the person again, or you do it for the sake of humanity, or maybe for both reasons.

You never treat a person wrong at such low points in their lives. Your instincts never let you do that. Your soul hurts even if you raise your voice against that person. And sometimes you realize you can forgive every wrong thing they've done to you, every way they have hurt you or made your heart ache. You are the most capable of forgiveness at such points in life.